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A reflection on Matthew 10:24–39, the Gospel lesson for Proper 7a according to the Revised Common Lectionary.

Fear really is the antithesis of faith.

And yet, fear hangs on us like humidity on an summer night. It coats us front and back, and attracts all kind of grime, so that even when it’s dries it’s still sticky.

In adulthood we may not be living in fear of what bumps in the night, what’s under the bed, or in the closet… But how many of us are scared to death of people finding out what our life is really like? How much energy do we expend trying to keep a failing marriage, crumbling finances, problems with the children, our health issues, etc. locked up in an emotional vault so that no one will ever know our struggles? How much focus do we expend on trying to project to others that we’re competant, talented, and successful so that no one will ever know our inner thoughts of critique and failure?

It’s the fear that we’ll be “found out.” Found out that we’re not as put together, smart, or care-free as we’d like to project to the world. Found out that our lives have problems, that we have problems, and that sometimes those struggles consume our thoughts through the day and keep us up at night.

Our ancestors feared famine, war, the rise of an evil leader. They feared for their lives, and the lives of their children, day in and day out.

I’m not interested in minimizing our modern fears and feelings…because I think at their core they are the same thing. The fear of being “found out” is the fear of death. It’s the fear of our own mortality, and the reminder that we aren’t even close to invincible.

We’re held together by tendons and synapses, and the lives we live are held together by so much less.

I’m a mess, and if it weren’t for a little spit and scotch tape I’d crumble onto the floor. And so would you. And, I can either let that eat away at me from the core of my being… I can try and numb it with a bottle of wine or a bottle of pills… Or, I can let it go.

And, that’s what Jesus offers us.

So have no fear of them; for nothing is covered that will not be uncovered, and nothing secret that will not become known…even the hairs of your head are all counted. So do not be afraid.

Do not fear the teacher. Or the master. Or the boss. Or the next-door neighbor. Your supremely successful high school classmate who has his own jet. The person who critiques your work…your art…your sermon.

Do not fear them. There is nothing to be afraid of anyway, because God has counted your every hair, your every wrinkle, your every cell. And you are loved.

It sounds easier than it is. We’re wired to fear death from our very genes. And, our culture has wired us to be “successful,” and has very helpfully defined what that success actually looks like. (Thanks, culture.)

One of St. Benedict’s central spiritual truths is to consciously recall our mortality every day. Every day we’re to remind ourselves that one day, perhaps even today, we’re going to die. There’s wisdom there. Because, for Christians death is nothing to fear. It’s not an end, but a new beginning. And, so who cares if we got a “C” in European History, or the big client fired our firm, or our front hall closet could be a SuperFund site, or if our marriage has fallen apart, or if we’re considering filing for bankrupsy, or if we can’t get past a second interview, or if we’re found out.

It’s ok. For even those who lose their whole lives will be found, along with their every hair.

So, do not be afraid.

A Trinity Sunday reflection

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Let us create humankind in our image…

We are created in God’s image. And, the most important word there might just be “we.”

There are elements of the Divine Image that we only bear when we are together, because God is a Triune Fellowship.

Let us create humankind in our image…

NOT “Let ME create humankind in MY image.”

God IS a community—what we call the Trinity—and so when we come together as a community of love we gain more and more the potential to reflect the the Image of God.

Which is why it’s so important for us, as Christians, to model great community. Our fellowship is an opportunity to be God’s Image for the world. Which means it’s more than even just a mere evangelical opportunity. It’s not about getting more followers, or members. It’s about giving the world a glimpse into what God looks like.

And, all of this, of course, is about our priestly role—the priesthood of all believers. Christian community and fellowship is all about bringing God to the peoples of the world. It’s a glimmer of light amidst the darkness.

We all know of the great examples of when Christian communities succeed. The Amish forgiving the man, and the family of the man, who slew their children in the schoolhouse. Pope Francis washing the feet of young juvenile offenders. The Martyrs of Memphis staying in the city of Memphis to minister to the sick and dying, even though they were practically assuring their own death.

We also know of the examples of when Christian community fails so horribly.

Which is why toxic Christian community is so damaging. When we aren’t a place where love is known and practiced… when we aren’t a place where forgiveness is freely given…when we aren’t a place that’s completely free of judgement and condescension—we fail at our most basic task.

This isn’t to say that we can’t be places where healthy conflict can be practiced. We don’t have to nice each other to death. But, when a conflict arises, we work out that conflict with grace.

And, it also not to say that we have to be perfect churches brimming with perfect people. We aren’t. And we won’t be. The reflection of God that we’re capable of isn’t a flawless reflection. We are going to hurt each other, and we’re going to be hurt. But, this isn’t always a horrible thing, for those moments give us a chance to practice forgiveness. Those moments offer an opportunity to show the world what it looks like for people who were once enemies to embrace and move on in love.

The Trinity isn’t just a doctrine. It’s a way of living and a way of being. And, it’s something to emulate. For when we do, we show the world what God is like.

a more personal Pentecost reflection

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I was ordained a priest just six days after the death of my father. We had a…complicated relationship…and so my feelings were…complicated. I was grieved, and angry, and stunned. A little numb.

As the procession got closer and closer to the church doors I could hear more and more the congregation thundering through the hymn, “Praise to The Lord, the Almighty, the King of Creation.” Perhaps my favorite hymn. But, as we approached the church a lump hit the back of my throat so large that no voice would come out. I mouthed the words, and kept my eyes on the words on the page in front of me. As if I didn’t already know them by heart.

That lump seemed to never leave my throat. When the bishop called on me to answer the prescribed questions with the prescribed answers I was so scared that I’d open my mouth and nothing would come out. Thankfully, I was able to speak after all.

But, then it came time for the actual ordination. The congregation was singing the Taize “Veni Sancte Spiritus.” I came before the bishop and knelt down. The other priests came and gathered around me.

I started to sob. Weep. Uncontrolably. My shoulders were heaving up and down. I was glad the priests were blocking the view of the rest of the congregation, I was crying so hard. I was glad the singing was so loud.

The Veni began to come to the close. It slowed down. It got softer.

And, it was then that the most incredible thing happened. A peace washed over me in waves. The peace just covered me. I remember thinking that I couldn’t have started crying again if I had wanted to. My whole body relaxed and my mind focused on what was going on around me, and what was about to happen to me.

I can’t even describe the immediacy of change. From uncontrolable sobbing to clear-headed calm.

The bishop and the other priests laid their heavy hands on my head. I closed my eyes.

And then I saw her. Her. It was the Holy Spirit. Her face just inches from mine.

She was in the form of the Holy Spirit window in my college chapel – that sacred space which so utterly informed my spirituality in my most formative years. I had gazed up into Her eyes so many times, and there She was again gazing into mine.

I’ve had some powerful spiritual experiences, but that one was one of the best. I know that the Holy Spirit doesn’t always come with a wash of peace. Sometimes the Spirit comes with earthquake and fire. Sometimes the spirit stirs so much that people can barely handle it.

I had never really had a relationship with the Holy Spirit prior to that day. I had had a relationship with God the Father, and with Jesus since before I could remember. I addressed my prayers to each of them, sometimes interchangably, and sometimes specifically.

But, on that day the Holy Spirit sought me out.

Perhaps like the Holy Spirit had come to the disciples on the Day of Pentecost. Luke only gives us a general accounting. But, I do wonder if each of them experienced the spirit differently. Was someone blown away by an overwhelming sense of peace? Was someone jolted like they had grabbed a high-voltage wire? Was someone brought to tears? Was someone brought to uncontrolable laughter?

Paul tells us that when it comes to the Spirit, there are a variety of gifts. The Spirit brings us each unique charisms. But, I also think that the Spirit brings us each unique experiences.

What’s yours?

easter 4a: a reflection

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Towards the end of the second chapter of “Acts,” we find a summary of how the first followers of Jesus lived:

They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and fellowship, to the breaking of bread and the prayers. Awe came upon everyone, because many wonders and signs were being done by the apostles. All who believed were together and had all things in common; they would sell their possessions and goods and distribute the proceeds to all, as any had need. Day by day, as they spent much time together in the temple, they broke bread at home and ate their food with glad and generous hearts, praising God and having the goodwill of all the people. And day by day the Lord added to their number those who were being saved.

Everyone was in awe. Wonders and signs were being done. They were selling all they had and giving to the hungry, the thirsty, and the poor. They held things in common.

In other words, they shared with each other, and anyone who was in need.

Jesus was risen from the dead. Death couldn’t hold him down. The Resurrection power of God was working wonders in the world. And to testify to the amazing things that God was doing…they shared. Read More

Easter, a reflection

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On the day of the resurrection, some of the followers of Jesus went to the tomb. They were going to make the final preparations of Jesus’ body, for he had been buried with haste.

And when they got there, they were met with the amazing revelation that Jesus was…no longer dead. He was dead, but now he wasn’t anymore.

He was very much alive. And different. Mary didn’t recognize him. He had to speak her name so that she knew it was him. He wasn’t just resuscitated. This was something different. He was made new.

But, this wasn’t just something that happened in the morning. He came back in the evening, and met the disciples in the upper room. He also met two other disciples on the road to Emmaus that evening.

The Easter event was an all day thing. Some people think that the early Christians worshipped on Easter night because of all of the events which happened on that first Easter night.

But, that wasn’t all. Read More

Good Friday, a reflection

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I have this wonderful painting hanging in my office, “Cimabue after Disney” by the Rev. Dr. Dennis McNally, SJ. Jesus is muscled, teary-eyed, and dead. Blood trickles down his hands and feet.

He’s also naked, and exposed just enough that that’s the one thing people notice when they see it for the first time.

Subtly, at the bottom of the painting is a less-known feature. A mouse, with a dark halo, lapping up some of the blood of Our Lord, and in the not far away from a trap with the door open. It’s an allusion to St. Augustine’s statement: “The Lord’s cross was the devil’s mousetrap: the bait which caught him was the death of the Lord.” Read More

Maundy Thursday, a reflection

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“For as often as you eat this bread, and drink the cup, you proclaim the Lord’s death, until he comes.”

We sometimes speak of Holy Communion as being a “memorial.” We use this language because Jesus himself said that we are to “do this in remembrance of him.”

This is, I think, dangerous in our context because we have a weak understanding of what exactly constitutes “remembering.” We say we remember something when we recall it. When we think about it. Even if just for a moment we bring it to mind, we say we “remembered it.”

As if we forget Jesus until we gather at the Altar and remember him.

How many sermons have been preached on this, reminding congregations that remembering is literally broken down as re-member? The opposite of dis-member.

Many, but still I don’t think enough.

If the Eucharistic action is reduced to a simple recollection of Jesus, well then, let’s forget about it. There are lots of ways to remember Jesus. Perhaps even better ways than a little piece of dry pressed bread and a sip of cheap wine. (Or, grape juice…) Read More

lent 4a, a storyboard

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So, I’m trying out Haiku Deck as a sermon story-board tool. We don’t use “PowerPoint” in church, but tools like this help me think through a narrative arc, and this one in particular helps me keep my sentences short, punchy, and (hopefully) more effective. And…I LOVE the pic of the dead fish!

UPDATE: I’m liking Haiku Deck, and I think it has a lot of promise…but it’s kinda buggy right now. As much time as they’ve spent in getting the thing to where it’s at right now, I’m reasonably certain that they’ll eventually make sure it’s rock solid. But, I’ve had like 10 different things go wrong, crash, disappear, etc. in the last 24 hours… If you’re an early adopter like me, jump in and give it a try. If bugs drive you up a wall…wait a few weeks.

Created with Haiku Deck, the free presentation app

lent 4a: rise from the dead

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Current Affairs / Easter / Epistles / Eschatology / Lectionary / New Testament / Paul / Year A

Zombies.

Hungry with an insatiable appetite for living flesh, they roam alone and in hordes, looking and listening for prey. They have no regard for their own safety. No regard for life. No compassion. No relationships, not even with each other.

They just want to feed. They want to consume. They are all hunger.

As such, they are a grotesque statement on humanity. On culture: mindless consumming. Read More